Their destiny is destruct…
Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things.
So as you may have read my about, this blog is primarily to merge my spiritual life and integrate it into my daily student/work life.
The above passage was in my devotional today and it made me sit and reassess the ways I’ve been gluttonous with my endeavors. I often choose to spend more time studying and I put off quiet times. I’d rather do my work than sit back for a few moments to praise God for giving me the gift of education and schooling. I end up choosing a lot of other things over giving God my time of day. This is troublesome.
The devotional describes the different forms of gluttony and our biggest asset against our own nature to indulge is through fasting. It can be fasting from foods, sweets, and other doo dads. But fasting encompasses a lot more than that, it is an act in which we go with the absence of X thing. We purposefully go without to feel the absence of our indulgence and to prayerfully evaluate its existence in our lives, whether it be positive or negative. We go through a painful (or at least sometimes) phase in which we want to fall back into indulging, but I encourage everyone to press through. The emptiness/void that we feel needs to be filled with something more fulfilling. We need to fill it with time with God.
Our hearts, body, mind, and even world emphasizes the idea of balancing all of our activities together. I say, we can never fully achieve that until we put in the time with God and find a balance with Him first before we tack on other responsibilities.
As for the lenten season, a time of growth and repentance, I had given up spending time with my boyfriend after a set hour. To be completely honest, I haven’t been faithful to that endeavor. I instead wanted to cuddle for a bit longer, make excuses to study at his apartment or vice versa. I indulge in our time together because I in a way idolize the relationship, and on most occasions I end up putting him before our God.
I’m hoping to be more honest with myself instead of burying away my mistakes. With that I’m going to go into devotional mode much earlier than usual, to avoid the chance of me wanting to crawl back into boyfriend’s arms. I also will start working on other relationships outside of ours, to create new ones and to strengthen old ones, and hopefully, God willing, they will help fill in the void of boyfriend’s presence. I just pray that the relationships I choose to mend, make, and strengthen are all glorifying to our loving God. :]